Hope

When we look at the World, who can you trust? A lot of people your going to know, will likely not be the person you thought they were.

I have always had a warm feeling that my friends and other people come to me for advice and help.

In my conclusion from that judgement I believe I am a wise, intelligent person.

I have always given the best advice I could ever give, and above all always seen the best in people as well as never given up on people.

This year I have done that to two people, sometimes you have to look at your own mind to see if your psychologically able to help them.

I for one will always put my self first, as my health to me is more important. Yet the interest of my friends and associates are extremely important to me.

My first counter was a young girl, with a disability. She had a walking problem, I presume she had mental problems as well as this illness is normally linked to the brain. Me and my friend's tried so hard to be her friend, but enough was enough she had something wrong with her everyday.

She either had the worst life in the whole world or it was bull shit. Unforgivable no evidence for these daily counters could ever be proven. Amazing that?

I personally think she was a lonely girl whom was trying to be someone else to create sympathy for her life. I think she would of got on fine at college, if she just been herself. Yet she could not do that. Such a shame.

I gave her so many opportunity's but she wouldn't buy in, I tried my best. I gave up in the end, because I had to look at my own physical state. I thought I was going to have a heart attack.

Now here is a brief story of a guy I know. For the purpose of the blogm I will call him T.

T was a lovely guy, he was gay. The problem with our friendship was he was a very depressed young boy, who doesn't actually understand how easy he has it. He didn't really have any problems as a child or a bad child hood.

I understand that people have manic depression, I really do and sympathise but T is not like that. The problem with T is he's a great guy but makes a issue about northing. He knows why he is depressed yet he will not change it.

T lives his life shuttled inside his cave and will not leave, the reason he is depressed because he has no responsibility or normal daily stress in your life. You sit in a room for a week with northing to do or do not bother going out.... Your be depressed too!

The problem I had was T fancy s me, so every time I went round there he would try to kiss me. Which was certainly nor appropriate.

I tried so hard to be his friends, and work on him focusing on his life. Yet he doesn't want to be helped. Not much I can do, and with the whole fancying thing, he cannot drop it and then threats to commit suicide. So in the end I had to give up, I feel sad I have done so, yet my health is my number one priority.


Some people in life, do not want help. They are clear of the problem, yet they will never change. I mean I feel depressed everyday, I wake up every morning thinking of my terrible child hood and whats the point?

Yet I keep my self busy everyday and learn and do my best to change them, because end of the day I only get, if I try. Not many people get everything put on a silver platter.